I know this is ironic since I just wrote about how much I love my job... but today was the first time since I have been at my store that I seriously considered quitting my job. (Quitting meaning giving notice until I could get another one.)
There were just a lot of little things that set me off today. The first thing that put me in a bad mood was one of my co-workers. She pulled something in her back, so she can't lift things, or do the ice cream, etc... She had mentioned that people in her family were calling her gimpy. so, I had jokingly called her that a couple of times, and she was smiling and laughing about it. I turned back to to my cake and WHAM! She whipped me with a wet towel! It hurt so bad! I know that she was just playing around, BUT IT MADE ME SO MAD! She was shocked that it had actually hurt me. (Apparently she has tried this with other people and not been able to make it hurt, so she told me that I was the unlucky person that it happened to happen to.) Normally Jess and I get along just fine, but this put me in a bad mood. She apologized right away once she saw that I wasn't playing anymore.
The second thing was that since Jess couldn't do ice cream, I had to start it so that Nicole could finish it when she came in at noon. That was fine, and even after she got there I helped get the rest of the partials in so that all she had to do was tubs. And there were two of them to help customers. Now, even though it was a Saturday, we are normally slow Memorial Day weekend since most people are out of town. So, the two girls liked to stand around and talk. While doing cakes, I constantly had to stop in order to make sure that they would still work. And even though Nicole got out the tubs we needed, I ended up having to help put them in since she left them out for so long that they were all melting!
Third, we have been having trouble with a girl named Heidi at my store. (She used to work at Bountiful and then came out to my store since we needed more workers.) After Sarah got there, Nicole was telling her about some of the issues, and I wanted to hear too. But Sarah got mad. She said that we shouldn't gossip about other people. She said that it wasn't something that I needed to worry about and the only people that needed to know were her and Justin. And that really got to me. I put so much effort into this store that I really feel like I help run it, and for Sarah to tell me that it had nothing to do with me really offended me. I see her point, and I know that she is right, but at the same time, it really mad me feel inconsequential.
I sent Justin a text telling him what happened and he could tell that I was upset so he called and talked to me. He said that I was a big part of how that store was run and of course he needed me. He said that I am the best cake decorator out of any of his stores. I said thanks, but I don't believe you, since I know almost all of the other decorators too. He said that he meant it. He said that my designs are really good and since I take such pride in them they are even better. He also said that I am really fast at it and still make them look good. He said when he first took over the store it was one of the lowest cake selling stores, and since I have been there it is normally the highest. He said he knows that it because of me. He also said that he doesn't think that Sarah meant to offend me. He said that he knows that she really respects me, and he wanted to know if we had any other issues that he needed to know about. He said that sometimes managers take their good workers for granted and he wanted to make sure that she wasn't doing that to me. He said hopefully I could just write today off as a bad day, and that tomorrow things would be better. He also thanked me for talking to him about it. He says he really wants to know when I have a problem.
The other problem that I have been having with working lately, is that I feel that the family gets mad at me when I am at work. I know that I work a lot, but I really feel like you guys get on my case about it. And that really stresses me out. Allie told me that she thought I had sold my soul to the store and that it was ruining my life. It completely shocked me since I do normally love my job and take a lot of pride in my work. Kjersti even gets mad at me when we go in there to stop working when I'm not on shift.
I do love cake decorating though, and I love how much money I make at the store. I feel like Justin respects me and I like that this job is flexible so that I can work and go to school at the same time. I like that I work all days so that I have the nights free. And, most of the time, I really like the people that I work with too.
I don't know though. I guess today was just a bad day...
2 comments:
I'm never really mad when I joke with you to stop helping when you're not working. I know that when you put that much time and effort into something it becomes more than just a paycheck, even though your paychecks definatly help. I know that the store is your baby in a way since you help out with it so much and so much of your time is dedicated to it. I'm glad you're happy with where you work.
What I want for you is that you continue to like what you're doing and to get something out of it without putting the store higher on your priority list than you are. It's important to feel like you're a part of something and contributing, but it's equally important to be a PART of something, and not lose yourself to it.
Justin is right, you do an awesome job and you should be really proud of yourself. I worked there when we sold ice cream and the cakes were an after-thought, and you really did help turn it around.
Chelsee, I hate to say it but I think you have it backwards. This family does NOTHING but support you. When we get upset about your work it is because we are being DEFENSIVE of you. You guys would do the same for me if I were to complain about my job... we all want you to be happy, and if your job is causing stress, we tend to lash out at your job because of how it's making you feel.
I also want to say that when your job dominates every other aspect of your life, I don't care how much you love it, it's a problem. I would just recommend some balance, but I think now that you're getting back into school, it will be better for you.
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